Earlier this week I jinxed myself. I tweeted about how I was feeling nervous because everything was going so well in my life…and then I ends up having a really crappy week. Someone once told me “they’re not your real friends, I’m your only friend ” I always thought they were just trying to control me and have me to themself, and that may have been the case. But they were looking out for me, but because I don’t like people looking out for me and what not, I ignored them. But they were most probably right. I know it’s not a big deal, and there’s worse things going on in the world, but I got bailed on by 4 different people on 4 consecutive nights. 1:Ended up being ill hours before we were to meet. 2:Thought we were meeting “next week” 3:Normally texts back with some kind of bullshit excuse, no text this time 4:Bailed on by my oldest best friend & family member, we’ve drifted a long way apart over the last few years :( So yeah, I am feeling sorry for myself. And I know I wrote about how I’m always giving and never receiving and I’m fine with that. But when your sat at home, having people bail on you all the time it makes me wonder if it’s not them that’s the problem, but me!!..and that makes me sad, knowing that people dislike me and rather than say something carry on this bullshit pretence. I could get angry with said people, and everyone around me, but that’ll achieve nothing. So instead I’m going to go about my life one day at a time. Focus on work, focus on saving, focus on what makes me happy :) Right now sleep will make me happy so I should probs get back to it….
You’ve seen the film, read the book…Now eat the cast. Rabbits!! #OnlyInCardiff
Every day until the day I die…
do you just stare at someone’s lips & get a massive urge to just make out with them.
I can’t believe drawing a black line across my eyelids makes me feel 10x prettier.
Oh my, I am in such a frikkin good place right now that I had to shout about it!!
I’m not really sure where to start, I’m not really sure why I’m telling you (and by you, I mean no one because no one reads my blod (thank fuck)) but yeah I’m not really sure why I’ve just had an epiphany…well I do, I ate pizza and was like “Oh my gosh, I’m loving life right now” so here I am 😊
I got a free large pizza, large fanta and 7 garlic & herb dips last night.
I’ve been having mind blowing sex with this guy for the last couple of weeks.
I’ve got 2 great jobs, one of which I have had the whole 6 weeks holiday off.
I have money, for the first time in my life.
My liver is rotting away, but that’s fine because it makes life more exciting.
I’m currently naked in the comfiest bed ever, watching my fave programme and eating my free pizza 🍕 from last night.
I have a new tattoo (See below 👇)
My family are just lush and amazing and I’ve seen more of them them this summer than I have in the past couple of years.
I have a frikkin degree, and I got an amazing job because of that degree.
I’ve got such an amazing cheer squad, and have been on some of the best cheer squads ever. Big shout out to Plymouth Storm, Pride Renegades, Central Explosion & RSD action 💖
I’m so frikkin tired right now, but I don’t care. So I’m staying awake.
Like honestly, I feel so good it hurts (in a good way) I wish life would stay like this, but it’s gonna come to an end. But for now, I’m going to enjoy each and every moment.
Right I’ll stop bragging about how amazing life is and go back to my programme 📺